Ugh. Okay, so I'm almost alright now. The last two weeks have been this sort of crazed madness of stress and general fails.
So I've stopped waking up at 5am and started eating properly again, and I'm finally planning my essay which means my head feels much less like it's going to explode now. Somehow I just let everything pile up.
And yeah, I still feel like I don't know enough and like I should probably do a photography degree just to get by, but I'm trying to be slightly braver. Not so afraid of everyone. And certainly less looking petrified.
It's my birthday on Friday. And my essay is due in as well. I hope all will be okay. Deciding what to do is impossible, no one is ever going to want to go to the same places. Cambridge sucks.
Nothing much else seems to be happening right now. I'm completely behind with Infinite Jest. Currently things are just a balance between working, drinking and working.
It poured with rain earlier. Unusually heavy rain. But fairly short lived. I felt like wandering around in it, like it might make me feel better. Except last time I went for a walk in the rain I don't think it really helped.
So instead I took some photos of the clematis round my window. ^ is the result.
Oh. And I got a new phone. It is shiny and slidey = awesome.
bai.x.
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