The Night Starts Here

I have learnt a lesson today. I can't let things that shouldn't be important to me anymore rule my life, things that wouldn't show me as much regard. I shouldn't stop myself doing things because of one person. I have to move on sometime. And I guess that time is now. Despite earlier comments about rather hanging out with the BNP. I'm sure there's some quote to go with that lesson... but the only one I can think of is obesity being a sign that something is eating us... which isn't really relevant here. 

There's no reason why I can't play whatever songs in front of whoever. I don't care what they think, and it's not like I have to speak to them, so it's fine. If it happened, it could happen, and it would be fine. Right? I do always have to overcomplicate and overthink EVERYTHING. 

It's time for me to grow up. Growing up doesn't have to mean forgiving. Hah. 

Anyway, annoyingly yesterday I forgot my camera, so I have no photos from my gig. Oh well. That's why I didn't do another post after the gig. Also because I was very very tired. It was such a great afternoon, despite the fact I was playing to about 12 people... I guess in some ways that made it nicer, more relaxed. Not that it wouldn't have been good if more people had been there. I took a brief trip to evil Tesco, which was classic, as none of us had any idea which way to go, so we were just back-seat driving and really annoying Smem. 

Me: Turn right!!

David: No, turn left!!

Me: No turn right!

David: No turn left!

Me: AAAHHHHH turn left!

David: That's what I was saying!!

Amusing. So I got food so I can now eat for the next few days until my parents get back from France. When we got back to the Boathouse we watched more people play, then Kizzi brought cake for me because I played a song I had no intention of playing. She promised me cake if I played it. Then we sat outside and ate cake, David, Jon, Chrif and Kizzi left, so me and Smem just sat in the Boathouse downstairs drinking. Mmmm. 

I've also gained 3 new fans which is great :D I am well pleased. The CD idea is becoming more realistic in my head, especially when people are nice to me. I was telling Smem and Chrif that I'm going to name it Constellation. Chrif wanted me to name it Genital Warts. Yeah, or not. 

Not much happened today, I did a fair amount of work, felt like sleeping all day, and watched Peep Show, the classic episode when Jez eats the dog, and felt scared by the amount of wind and rain. 

Currently debating whether to watch Skins or tape it and go to sleep. I cannot decide. 

Picture today is my finger with my phone. I woke up around 6am, and checked my phone to see what time it was, and I thought my finger looked really cool in the dark with just the phone lighting it. I know I'm a loser. So yeah, took a picture of that.

The breaks in Skins are always really long. But if I tape it then I'll watch it in the morning and waste time instead of doing VIP work. Hm. I guess I'll just watch it and risk being tired because I'll wake up around 6 again. Oh well. 

Title is by Stars. 

[edit] I watched Skins. 

And I'm smiling. It feels rare.

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